I was look at my calender today and saw I have a meeting with him next week. as of late I have started to become afraid to go because of what happened to my mom. my mom died of lung cancer a year a go. ever since that day I have some issues with my mom doctor. the doctor she used is this my doctor. some times I think he missed things that could have helped my mom earlier and mom could have been her with us longer. the other thing that makes me afraid is my dad because he thinks the same thing and he had a bug this summer and he did not help him very much at the time. so I am considering not going till I feel better about it. I know I have two heath issues but how can he help me if I can not trust him . I hope some of you out their can feel as I do and make any suggestions about how to handle is very important issue I am facing.